Friday, January 13, 2006

Sha la la

I'm up late tonight. I tried going to sleep earlier but to no avail. I think it was the coffee at board meeting... that or board meeting. I love my board. They are wise and witty and they want to see our church become. this was at both an exciting and quite challenging board meeting. We spent the whole meeting evaluating. articulating our niche, identifying our weakness, and dreaming of what we will become.

I am what they call a visionary leader. I see the future. I don't always know how to get there but i can see it alright.

The tough part of tonights meeting was really getting to the nitty gritty of what we are not. We all know it but few of us can define it, and fewer could offer any concrete suggestions on how to improve it.

It makes me long for the day when i can swim in my strength and not have to wrestle so much to prop up my weakness.

they say that when a pastor focuses on his strength the church will reflect his strength, but when a pastor focuses on his weakness the church will reflect his weakness.

on another note.

I got a call from an old friend recently. Such a good man. Godly, gifted and just a really good man. He is as far as i can tell living in his dream. He is good friends still with another great old friend. I just saw her name on tv. - came here and found her website. As far as i can tell she seems to be living her dream now too... I'm so proud of them. I miss them i think. and i think i envy them some.

My life has taken a different path than they. I'm not sorry for that at all... But i am aware that i don't spend as much time as i would like in the places of my dreams. - just a lot of time dreaming.

I've visited my dreams but i'm not living there yet. Part of the problem is that so few people dream the dreams i dream.

It really can be lonely being a joseph. That and you have to live your life embarassed that you actually encourage yourself singing " Go, go, go Joseph you know what they say
Hang on now Joseph you'll make it some day
Sha la la Joseph you're doing fine
You and your dreamcoat ahead of your time"

embarrasing really.

4 comments:

mo said...

I was praying for you last night, just felt like I needed to. You have such a difficult job, dealing with wierd people like us. Something you and your wife have to be called to (who would ask for such a job). I hope, someday, I can understand your forward thinking dreams, I think I'm beginning to. Sorry if I came across too harshly as I expressed my confusion.

Jennifer&Derrick said...

It's great that you are inspired by your dreams. All I can say is plan to make them come true. Take the baby steps in order for the process to begin. But have a realistic plan with realistic goals so that your dreams can succeed.

Jennifer&Derrick said...

when will we get to see more pictures of your beautiful baby??

Anonymous said...

Why do you envy?

Aren't you living your dream too?